Tuesday, August 17, 2010
And I have yet to figure out how to get through to her.
A very distant instance. One that can only be seen, yet not being able to become closer to. An insatiable yearning, longing to be cared. Oh how pitiful...
Ahh, whatever with the dramatics haha! Yes, as you have guessed it, this is another one of my memoirs of my pursuits, laced with hints of happiness and, mostly soaked in my own self-pity. Nah, I'm not THAT much of a downer ya :)
Season in, season out. The cycle just keeps on going. Re-aligning oneself to the closest possible girl to try to go out with. But they all just seem too distant to me. I'd liken it to trying to travel from the Earth to Neptune, versus traveling from the Earth to Pluto. Given current technology, it'd still take eons to reach Neptune, let alone Pluto.
To me, however I align myself, they all just seem too distant.
There was this once where I actually lost the yearning for a partner. Sounds crazy, but I equated a partner to simply just a best friend plus intimacy. My bro, who upon hearing that, verbally smacked me out of it, saying that that's just simplifying it and there's much more to the story than that.
The curious thing is that, just like the Forbidden Fruit to Adam in the Garden of Eden, I won't know what's it like until i've taken a bite out of it. And unlike Adam, who could either just grab it or leave it, here I am wanting a partner, but to no avail.
Let me take this chance to reiterate again that I am not a despo, if not I would have settled with that someone back there in the past.
Truth be told, the yearning has pretty much waxed and waned over the years, with more seasons spent in the waning phase as of late. I find myself less conscious about my apparent lacking, but what's the scariest is if I lose the interest to pursue anyone.
My friend told me that for starters, I should stop quantifying the aspects of a relationship, but without this quantifying, I might just go crazy trying to reason out the billion reasons that a relationship can fail, and not finding the right answers.
Cut the pretense, for I do not come with one. All the de facto cultural ways of pursuit are just merely extra baggage, inhibiting possible relationships, but it is truly tragic that we all have to adhere to it.
Now, before I let the frustration of the lack of answers get to me, I'll just leave this as it is, knowing that running away from the problem is not gonna resolve it, but asking a girl out straight up without any form of getting-to-know-each-other time isn't a very good solution either :) (I might just do it for kicks lol)
(I know this post is not organized at all, but well, what do ya expect from a brain dump? :P)
gibs. ¶ 7:23 PM
Ahh, whatever with the dramatics haha! Yes, as you have guessed it, this is another one of my memoirs of my pursuits, laced with hints of happiness and, mostly soaked in my own self-pity. Nah, I'm not THAT much of a downer ya :)
Season in, season out. The cycle just keeps on going. Re-aligning oneself to the closest possible girl to try to go out with. But they all just seem too distant to me. I'd liken it to trying to travel from the Earth to Neptune, versus traveling from the Earth to Pluto. Given current technology, it'd still take eons to reach Neptune, let alone Pluto.
To me, however I align myself, they all just seem too distant.
There was this once where I actually lost the yearning for a partner. Sounds crazy, but I equated a partner to simply just a best friend plus intimacy. My bro, who upon hearing that, verbally smacked me out of it, saying that that's just simplifying it and there's much more to the story than that.
The curious thing is that, just like the Forbidden Fruit to Adam in the Garden of Eden, I won't know what's it like until i've taken a bite out of it. And unlike Adam, who could either just grab it or leave it, here I am wanting a partner, but to no avail.
Let me take this chance to reiterate again that I am not a despo, if not I would have settled with that someone back there in the past.
Truth be told, the yearning has pretty much waxed and waned over the years, with more seasons spent in the waning phase as of late. I find myself less conscious about my apparent lacking, but what's the scariest is if I lose the interest to pursue anyone.
My friend told me that for starters, I should stop quantifying the aspects of a relationship, but without this quantifying, I might just go crazy trying to reason out the billion reasons that a relationship can fail, and not finding the right answers.
Cut the pretense, for I do not come with one. All the de facto cultural ways of pursuit are just merely extra baggage, inhibiting possible relationships, but it is truly tragic that we all have to adhere to it.
Now, before I let the frustration of the lack of answers get to me, I'll just leave this as it is, knowing that running away from the problem is not gonna resolve it, but asking a girl out straight up without any form of getting-to-know-each-other time isn't a very good solution either :) (I might just do it for kicks lol)
(I know this post is not organized at all, but well, what do ya expect from a brain dump? :P)
gibs. ¶ 7:23 PM